Emily, 14 years

I had to come and live with my Gran as my mum was depressed. Gran didn’t want to tell me mum was depressed but I already knew as mum had told me along with her nurse. I just told everyone that I had to go and stay with my Gran as my mum was ill and I didn’t want to talk about it. I think they thought she had cancer or something.

I really miss mum and don’t know what to do

When mum died I was so angry with her I didn’t want to go to her funeral but I did, can’t really remember it though. I’m still confused and angry with her. Not long after the funeral I moved school as my old school was too far away from Grans and I didn’t want everyone talking about me or mum. I didn’t have many friends at school anyway as I had to look after mum a lot and she didn’t let me bring people to the house.

I really miss mum and don’t know what to do and think if I had stayed at home she would still be alive. Sometimes I feel so sad I just sit on the floor and cry. I don’t tell Gran I do this as I don’t want to worry or upset her. If we talk about mum Gran gets upset so I try not to talk about her.

Catherine is going to help me do something to remember Mum

I talk about mum to my worker Catherine, I like Catherine she’s nice and if I don’t want to talk about anything she doesn’t mind not like Gran, if I’m quiet she’s always asking me what’s wrong, that’s so annoying. Catherine is going to help me do something to remember mum, I’m not sure yet what. Catherine says It’s okay for me to be happy and to do fun things and maybe Gran and me could do something nice together. I’m glad I’ve got Catherine to talk to.